-xianting,
i understand that there is no topic for us to talk, but even a simple smile or wad,
could have shown wonders.
about the different class things, sorry i was just sad about it.
who wont think about negative stuffs when one's sad?
yes i know i hang about my class friends more, becos, im in the class, new people, new faces. (except krystal and kent and junyong and ros.)
k the most close stuff they'll do, is to ask me to teach them, becos they always say,
"you've learnt the most stuff, please teach ur junior" i could not possibly reject.
along corridoors(spelling correct?) or when walking back to class etc wif you all,
k maybe its just me, im too jumpy when i see friends, i'll always smile and say hi or wad.
i wont talk more if only they have asked me this and that. and they always di siao me, becos of stupid junyong and another classmate, made fun of my mouth actions. k maybe this is not important.
i din dare to approach u, was becos, you turn a black face to me, i knew something's wrong.
i asked you wad happen to you, you'll also say nothing.
one time u said "nothing la" u got real irritated ba i suppose? i din want to irritate u any further then on. so i din ask further. last time when i tried to make u smile again, I FAILED. instead other ppl success so... i just.. :\..........
when u dont ask me i say u angry me, i remembered something if im not wrong,
u asked me wad happen i said nothing. after that i think ur mood was crushed and thats why i asked you whether ur angry at me anot? ( ignore this if it isn't true, i dunwan to wrongly accuse you or anything. no offence for this sentence )
i never ever thought of you reporting to me every trouble you have,
if its unnecessary, i dun see a reason why i'll wanna know.
but of course, if i see you having bad mood or feeling down, definitely i'll ask wad happen to you.
if you ask me not to ask, or dun wanna talk about it anymore, i'll respect that.
i myself, feel the same if im troubled, sometimes i just dun wish to explain things to other ppl.
i either wait next day when my mood's back or just cant be bothered and throw it in the rubbish bin in my head.
look ok, i've never ever thought i would blame anyone. not you not me. not both of us. no one's at fault. i have never brought "fault" this word into my head ever since. these few weeks exam, i know you'll juggle ur matters, problems and exam right in your head. but just think positive ok ( i know i dun think positive too ).. after exams, you've got one less burden around you. today someone told me,
"when your mood is happier, life around you is beautiful. stay strong and happy. most importantly, smile (: and dun let every sorrow overtake you, overtake that sorrow." i hope you would yourself too. study hard, try not to let these affair affect you much. this year is your important year. next year too. k?